Visible Perfections

It's probably not awesome start a blog with the words: I know that none of this is really going to make sense to anyone, and I'm not sure how to even adequately express what I'm feeling, but i usually just write out of the overflow of my heart, so...deal.

There's a few thoughts lately that have really fuel my passion for the Lord. And these aren't new revelations, but thoughts that strike me from time-to-time and always leave me in awe.
I never cease to be astonished by how God has created us all. I was just thinking about my previous post and how that personality type description fits me so exactly. I can't believe that I'm actually normal and can be defined like that! That kinda brings me comfort. I guess because it's good to know that there are people like me out there somewhere! It brings peace to know that I am the way I am because that's how God designed me to be and not because I've screwed myself up! It's ironic because I was kinda venting to Courtney about this several days ago, about how I always have to care SO deeply and how I can't just give up on people or get over people and move on like it seems like everyone else can. It's rather annoying to be like that, honestly. But I also know that God can use those traits for good somehow too.

So I was just talking it out with Court and then two days later, I stumbled on Meyer-Briggs personality description again, and was reminded that this IS part of His plan for me. That I'm actually designed with a deep capacity to love, and that I'm choosy about who I get close to and open up with because he made me that way! It's so easy to see those things as flaws because as wonderful as they sound, they cause more pain than joy. At least in my limited experience. So I'm really just overjoyed at seeing, once again, that I am the way I am on purpose and for a reason! It gets so easy to subconsciously start to see these traits as negative things and I'll assume I'm this way because of the scars on my heart or mistakes in my past. But nope! This is how God designed me in the beginning!

And that's not even what I was trying to write about...what leaves me in awe is thinking about how God has designed all of us SO differently, yet similarly enough to able to be categorized into "types". and not just personality types either, there are tons! Ya know, like love language, how you think, how you learn, how you teach, your type of humor, etc. There are so many different styles and types of different characteristics about all of us. And i guess we all have a combination of different types about us and that's what can make us SO similar to someone in one way, but so different in another. If that makes any sense. And I just find incredible, stunning beauty in that!
Like, even just last Saturday I was telling Jill how it astounds me that God has designed it that there are "types" of the way people think. Thinking! Like, who would think thats there's a pattern to thinking or a certain way of thinking? The creativity in that design seriously stirs passion and love in my heart for the Creator.

Like, I know of one person that thinks pretty similarly to how I do. And that's amazing because that person will actually understand what seems like incoherent rambling to the rest of y'all. And yet, we think so similarly, but have very different relational styles. completely different! And I wish i could convey how beautiful that is! It's stunning! It really it. Just that loving, intricacy of design. wow. When God created us, we weren't just thrown together. There was thought and love put into how we were made. And none of us are really alone because there are people like us that understand what most people can't.

And along those same lines...wait....this blog is getting too long. ok, I'll save my other thought about the artistry of God's design in this world for another time. It just blows me away to see His fingerprints all over everything, and I love talking about it! sue me.
so I'll catch you up on something else that blew my heart up about that later.

Hey, you know what would make tv better? If Neil Patrick Harris was in every show! dang. I'd quit my job, become a slacker, and live in a box and watch tv all day on my handheld tv set. That guy is an unbelievably cool and extremely talented dude. He should be the star of every show.

Kinda the same way that Marky Mark and Jason Statham should star in every movie. with cameos by Vin Diesel. (At the very least, in every movie with explosions.) Yes, i have very awesome taste in everything, don't I? I'm well aware.