It's amazing the incredible amount of ignorance that we unwittingly live in.<--preposition.
I've been reading through this old journal that I recently found (which I'll probably post some of those old entries on here at some point), and it blows my mind how just plain dumb I was. And I was so unaware! I thought I was right.
I can read journals from 10 years ago and be shocked at the amount of self-centered idiocy, but I can also read things I wrote 6 months ago and think the same thing. Scary.
Not to say I'm the same person as I was back then, but the things I incorrectly believed have shifted into something else. You kill one fallacy and it simply morphs into something new.
It's weird the different forms that pride can take. Looking back it seems so obvious, yet if I look back six months ago, I still walked in a certain amount of pride, only it was in a different form that it was back then so once again I didn't realize it.
The things I thought were just so ignorant. Not just in relation to pride, but pretty much everything. Haha! It's truly incredible. Hard to believe that I was once so dumb.
The scary thing is that I'm walking in some type of ignorance right now too. But I'm obviously blind to it, so who knows what it is that I'll look back on in a year and laugh at how immature and dumb I was? I try to live with my eyes open, and I feel like I live a well-examined life, yet there will always be things that be believe incorrectly. We're always seeing something incorrectly.
The good thing about old journals is that you actually can see how much you have grown. For instance, I think I've finally grown enough to accept rebuke, and perhaps even grown to love being rebuked. As weird as that sounds. I don't want to live in ignorance and immaturity, so rebuke is welcome. Which, I guess that's just a result of my depleted pride. That's something that the Lord has slowly transformed. it's beautiful.
I'm not sure what the actually purpose of this post is.<--preposition
I suppose I just wanted to praise the Lord for all that He's done in me and ask that I be able to live with my eyes wide open so that I'm blissfully walking in ignorance.
I seriously need to type of some of those old entries. Its entirely laughable.
I can't believe who I used to be...ten years ago, or even last year! Shocking.
i probably need to start working on apologies.
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**goes into teacher mode** Don't end sentences with prepositions!!
ReplyDeleteOld journals are scary to look through, I know what you mean. Sometimes I'll look through my old journals and I'm shocked at my ignorance and naive immaturity. Then I'm in for a further shock when i realize that at the time I thought I was right, that I didn't think myself immature......and it makes me wonder what I'll think in the years to come when I'm reading journals from 2009!
I used to get really embarrassed when reading my old journals, but I've since learned to accept the fact that this is who I was at the time, and instead take pleasure in the fact that I've matured enough to be able to recognize the immaturity.
PS - 'is' is a verb, not a preposition. =P