So i fell in love with this today....

Disturb us, Lord, when

We are too well pleased with ourselves,

When our dreams have come true

Because we have dreamed too little,

When we arrived safely

Because we sailed too close to the shore.



Disturb us, Lord, when

With the abundance of things we possess

We have lost our thirst

For the waters of life;

Having fallen in love with life,

We have ceased to dream of eternity

And in our efforts to build a new earth,

We have allowed our vision

Of the new Heaven to dim.



Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,

To venture on wider seas

Where storms will show your mastery;

Where losing sight of land,

We shall find the stars.

We ask You to push back

The horizons of our hopes;

And to push into the future

In strength, courage, hope, and love.

[Sir Francis Drake]

Raditude

i LOVE the new Weezer album!!






















Does it really matter that i haven't even heard a second of it?
I'd buy the LP just to hang this on my wall.
The album cover brings a freakish amount of joy to my life!

In other news...the new Relient K single is out. Gonna buy it on my phone riiiiiiight NOW!

Funniest thing I've ever seen. This is for real, and I'm gonna find it on ebay.


Is it a part of the 5 points for Calvinist's to have a sense of Humor?

i'm so tired of me. somebody help!!

I’m tired of thinking. I’ve been incessantly camped out in my head all week. Every minute of every day. Argh! That’s sometimes good…lots of revelation. It’s sometimes bad…too much me.

It’s maddening.

I literally spend all day thinking and praying about how I can pursue Christ - what I need to change, what I need to let go and sacrifice, what I’m holding onto, what I need more of, what I can be doing, how I can be serving, how does my passion for Him work itself out practically, what holds me back, what encourages me, how I can give it all away, how I can die, how much of me is an egomaniac and how much is sincere, how I can be using my time more faithfully, where I’m being not consistent between my heart & words and my life…a thousand issues.
And all of that is good, I guess. But at the end of the day I want to puke because I’ve been thinking about praying about me all day! Even when I’ve been praying for more of Him, asking to know Him deeper, to see Him clearly, etc. it’s still about me. Even if it’s about how I can reflect His love to a dying world better, it’s still me. It makes my head want to explode. These are good things! Good things! But I’m wearing myself out!

I want to quit praying about knowing Him better, and just know Him better!! I want to quit thinking about the changes I need to make, and just be Godly! I want to see my motivations and intentions clearly and honestly! I want to truly understand my self-centeredness. Why does everything have to be such a process? Ha!
Lately, my heart has been all over the map. Everywhere!! And I come up with question upon question, but no real ANSWERS! It seems so easy to help other people with their problems. How am I so quick to have advice and wisdom for others…but I’ve got nothing for myself? Maybe that’s a beauty of the human condition...our inability to save ourselves and our need for a Savior & Father. We’re ultimately pathetically, embarrassingly weak, and there is real beauty in that!

Haha…I’m so frustrated, but I know this is just God working me through something. I know this is part of the sanctification process. I’m sure I’m learning something. But honestly, I just feel spiritually constipated. All these thoughts and questions, yet none of them will fully blossom.

Though, I must admit, I kinda love seeing so weak and small and actually almost being okay with that. I need that. I think maybe cuz I struggle with grace. I can’t fully comprehend it and let it consume my heart like it should. Weird.

…and of course instead of writing a blog about Christ, I’ve written one about me. Go figure. Sheesh!